Allrite,here i go again!!! =D

I've jump to the new starting line and
everything should begin again =D

Laughter is back =D
Craziness is back =D
Lameness is back =D
Proness is back =D
Noobness is back =D

Completely packed and ready to go......

Lets see how long it can last =D

Its something bout the feel,
Its strange but I never knew why,when and how it started,
In the way that i never felt before,

Somehow,happiness,exciteness,shyness,sadness all present

Heart beat faster,
Face go red,
Words stuck from mouth,
Hands giggling,
Mind blank,
Legs cant keep up,

I finally cant hide things,
I express myself,
I do things,
I tried things,

Voice that comforts me,
Looks that hypnotize me,

Wanted to hold your hands,
Wanted to hug you,
Wanted to kiss you,
Wanted you by my side

Never meant to do those,
Never meant to give up,

No matter what and how much i do,
Things aren't gonna change,
Everything just gone into silent just like that
Assuming that its self to be blame

But......
Nothing can change my feelings

-simply ends-

Make a change towards the future,

Its not how we change,
Its how we deal with it,change with it and creating it,
A change that leads to the changing of self

Perak State Level Band Competition Results

Finally,the night is over
We MMB has walked out from the stadium with our pride back

The result is shocking though coz....
1st-Sam Tet
2nd-SMI
3rd-NAN HWA!!

Unpredictable eh?
Anyway,at least for me and the other cg's we did achieved wad we wanted
We aimed 2nd place as we dun wanna go for national finals =p
We dun wish to skip another 1 month of class,teachers would kill us

Just some preview,i'll upload the full show when its out,

Though we only got 2nd but the show is still the best in my heart
I want take the opportunity to those Cgs and the band for giving me this chance to be back on the field and grab what we've loss in the past 2 years

This will be my last year going out,
So,i'm just gonna say
Thank you MMB!!You're the best

-simply ends-

Random

Tomorrow gonna be the Perak State Level Marching Band Competition
So,how am i feeling?

Urghh,like usual la tired,stressful,saddening,happy?,excited?
Come to think of it,this might be my last year being in the formation line
This feelings is kinda odd eh,

For the past 5 years,i keep on insisting on quitting band every year
But then in a blink of eye i passed 5 years being in the band

Lets see,what we achieved was
2004-3rd(when i was form 1)
2005-2nd(i go out as trumpeter)
2006-3rd(a truly payable horn player)
2007-no placing =.=(kalah teruk)(3 tet menang wor)
2008-dint join(preparation for next battle)
2009-???(as color guards)

Wad will happen?
Will we emerge as champion or am i afraid of failures again??
1st batch of smi color guards,with fresh non-band members

I'm grateful that at least we chosen some "elites"

I'm still wondering the same thing,
What will happen??

We'll see~

-simply ends-

Friends or wadsoever,
Am i worth it to be placed in ppl's heart?
But i dun care,coz i live by mysellf

Achievements?

Do i really achieved anything in my life?

I dun think so,not even in 1 aspect that i achieved something
I never did anything great nor changes the ppl around me
Or i could say the only achievement i got is that i make things worst in everything that really a disgrace to the word ACHIEVEMENT
Its like,WTH,how could a person said that making things worst is an achievement
I'm really a total failure in every aspect of life

Its true that something is achieved by having
99% commitment,1%hardwork and luck
But then when i look at it at my perspective,things aren't easy as they seems
I tried putting 100% commitment and xtra 1% hardwork

but then the outcome is?
0% of achievement

You might say that i lost in luck but can a person really lost of luck for his whole entire life
Why would i say that?
Even those who knows me well(in fact theres none) cant list out what i've achieved and what i'm capable of.

If some of you said you're not good enough,
"SCREW YOU"
You're way much better than a sore loser like me,

Can i really get out of this pure failure atmosphere?
No one knows that i might keep going like this for my entire life
All i can say that i'm really lucky that God made me cheerful and look at probs happily
The following is all onto the one who look after me "up" there

THANKS FRIENDS FOR MAKING ME REALIZE WHAT I AM

An achievement is when things are truly achieved and you felt it,
A great achievement never will be forgotten by you,
Achieved greater achievement and make sure they never is a failure in achievement wise
-simply ends-

Life is better off without me
I'm always ready to be forgotten

1st time in history

Whoa,1st time in history man,yer all know wad happened in ma life?


I had my 1st ever time to be super #@$%ing angry
Yer know wad?
It was all juz bcoz of inco-op of the fella CG's

Alrite,it happens on Friday morning if i'm not mistaken
Yea,during school hour we skipped class to practice
(but of coz wif permission letter if not Pn Heng will pawn us)

And as usual,problem arises cg's not cooperating
So,as usual too i endured and endured and endured,
Cant deny i got the patience but then it all came off when louis chong tried to argue with me
Idk why but then i endured him for the past 5 years and yet i burst coz of him
Weird huh?

That might really a beginning that i'm starting to get aggressive after all the years i've been so soft on ppl

Wad a tragic...

Change yourself before you change others,
Impact your own life before you impact others,
Make a change and impact others to change

I'm so emofully

As i said i'm really so darn emo-full,for some reason the time i started back my usual life,alot of things started to play in my mind.
I'm in terrible pain now,my heart is broken,my mind is messed up

Why i felt this?Because i worry bout things that i shouldn't worry for now,at least for now,
Wad is it??Family,friends or to categorize it under relationship.
Its keeping me from my studies and career.

Ppl might ask me why emo bout this things??Why?
Because i've been going through alot since young but i wasted my time not to think of it and solve it.
And i just gone through my 18 years foolishly with my playful attitude losing all this things that i treasured now
I'm a failure in relationship matters,total failure
Never have thought of it until things really happen and wake me up with a knife cutting through me.
And things that coming back keep reminding me how i failed in this.
Why you guys do this to me?Why cry out in front of me?Why tell me how you feel?
But then did u all ever thought of my feelings?What i've been through

Anyway,i really felt that i change alot because of this
By this i think i'll able to keep up with the changes around me,
I wouldn't wan to be left out in this world anymore
Cant afford losing my next 10 years anymore.
I lost 18 years in total living miserably

I doubt if anyone would ever care bout me and this,
Sometimes i really felt like crying and mourn for things that i regret in the way that i din make a move for it,not the way i did it,its the way i ignored some things
Aihz,ntg can be done,at least i'll keep changing for now and that's rather enough for me now

STOP MAKING ME RECALL BACK THINGS THAT HAPPEN

Ciaoz,

Moodless

"Fear of looking forward with my eyes wide open,"
"Fear of making out things with my own hands,"
"Fear of caring anyone with my heart,"
"Fear of living in fear"